5 days I was never paid for (subject), but paid for (object): DAY 2

 2018, "i have the terminal degree in my field"

 

8:30 picked up at hotel by DM and partner-wife, "Do you know KB, she's fantastic?"

9:00 meeting with DM (head of art dept), he is wearing a black beret

10:30 meeting with BS (math & science), three water damaged ceiling tiles

11:30 meeting with MM (provost/vp/academic affairs)

12:30 on-campus lunch with search committee, saddest cafeteria ever

14:00 meeting with RT (information technology) "Oh, I'm going to use that now: Solution-oriented."

15:00 RM (visual resources curator) "There isn't much to do here, I fly to Portland on weekends" 

16:00 BREAK, I was never going to die in a place with wall-to-wall low-pile, institutional carpeting

16:30 job talk presentation (room C417) Kevin Brophy: DEEPFAKE (Kevin Brophy is Deep+Fake)

18:00 senior student critiques (west campus)

19:30 dinner at one of only two vegan fine dining places in town, is a repurposed gas station

20:30 has beer, reads search committee members tarot (only two men stayed *side-eye*)

21:30 has beers, talked about druqs, v pro-druqs (dear god, why? we could be making a living wage rn)

22:30 driven back to hotel by DM

23:00 shower, cringe, panic attack, free HBO, am dead-tired, can't sleep, free HBO

3:00 feels like throwing up, hates everything, will die if lives in this city with these ppl! (oh, that's why)

 

8:00 picked up at hotel by DM

8:30 meeting with NC (diversity & inclusion) 

9:10 meeting with VC (art history) literally knows nothing about art after 1968, *visibly disturbed*

10:00 meeting with RR (sculpture) "our student's don't know what sad girl theory is, but they could"

10:45 MM (benefits service manager) omg? 10k moving budget? I don't own anything, lol, I'm garbage

11:30 meeting with JP (drawing/painting) "you'll get used to it. this isn't florida, it's the south-south"

12:30 BREAK

13:00 lunch with DM, cringe, beret again, cringe, chill art spot, but I can't eat alone w this dude, seems intimate, seems like he's talking about in "40 years when you retire" *laughs in face* "if i live that long" (facepalm)

15:00 dropped off at hotel by DM "there is one other candidate other than you, we meet next week"

16:00 taxi to airport

17:30 flight memphis to tampa

22:30 mom with iced coffee in hand, "i bombed!!!" ...and I'm trading in my return ticket to Spain to stay here instead of going back to that haunted mansion...and I'm visiting HE in toronto in 2 weeks when I can't stand staying in your guest room any longer...and then I'm going to use the returned ticket credit to plan a friend-mantic May vacay with HE before my PNW residency in the most problematic city I will likely ever visit in this lifetime (hearts forever mom)

Notes: I received a 1 paragraph email from DM a week and a half later stating that they were going with the other candidate; an animator in his late 50s with an MFA from CalArts, 2 kids and a spouse.   

 

 

 

5 days I was never paid for (subject), but was paid for (object): PART 1

2018 "i have the terminal degree in my field"

 

8:30 awkward talk, walk, and hug from residency director

9:00 bus from lumbier to pamplona, dirt roads

9:40 wait, there is nowhere to sit, wait

10:00 train pamplona to barcelona

14:00 nicer wait station, vending espresso, wait, charge phone in bathroom, do yoga in bathroom, wait

16:00 train barcelona to madrid

20:30 wait, wait, vending espresso, watch british family cookoff season one at airport, wait, don't sleep

 

6:00 train station to airport, nothing is vegan in this terminal, coffee

9:00 flight madrid to orlando (5h connection london, coffee, dry bagel, little planes on gatwick seating)

23:00 (0:00 origin) mom greets w iced coffee in hand at orlando airport, drives 2h to her place

1:00 fave new york style chinese food in fridge, eat (hearts after-midnight-mom)

3:00 shower and read about on-campus interviews, think, note, think

6:00 sleep

 

9:00 drive to airport (mom is hero)

11:30 flight tampa to memphis (charlotte connection: edit images, video, screenshot old fb, write)

17:30 starfucks for days

18:02 taxi pick-up from airport

19:00 hotel check in, walk to cvs: granola bar and amy's soup

20:00 research "individuals on itinerary and decide specifics points to discuss in meetings tomorrow"

Notes: nationalism everywhere, rewriting history; data as--always corrupted--erasure; &history as zombie, frankenstein, rewritten, construed, STITCHED TOGETHER ~full zombie apocalypse~ ...some investigation to be done there about refusing to acknowledge delusion of wholeness (LOLOLOLOL)

 

 

Stand-up Artist, 2018

 contracts:

 please respect our neighbors,

they are normal      working ppl

do well in a gradient-shadow-glow, resist to translate for them

 to hold a hand inside

  to make a long and cold ride

 a warmth to holograph with tunnels

cutting seams for blocking light

looking to past with .the fool. is bright

  we developed a crush, shit's weird  96with knowledge of another96

it would an hour from the east village and that's why we are taking a car

You are going to be really good to your people this month. That's nice.

because, i am the Earth, spinning round. cracked and burned, for an ending down.

And, it will all be very good, but not all your way.

i'm never going to ask you who you are.

 

good, young lad. until your heaven's,end.

it's a problem, it's last call.