American F Cap

 

I never thought I was patriotic, but it turns out     (here too)

that my love language was criticism

We mourn a loss today.

 

Canceled, dont remember why, but canceled

 the body ~really does~ keep score

unmanageable cottagecore

 sometimes you have to sacrifice the most perfect data-driven picture to make something entertaining or aesthetically pleasing

A new version of the Greater

 Useful coping mechanism until

drool based bored

 online notes: like applying to schools with a *new school board*, no credentials just identity and fervor. In the South. Hoping they'll bring Positive Learning back from the 90s, oh hey..? No, that's the Ten Commandments. a relic and romanticism of the childhood. 

"Positive Learning was a 30 minute program after the Pledge of Allegiance that taught Elementary School children about acceptance of difference, compassion, empathy and self-esteem in the 1990s."

drool based bored  new school board

drool based bored  new school board

drool based bored  new school board

its all strip malls and parking lots

need a platform for text

need wood to sit on (summer)

need a steady studio schedule

an apparatus with 'em bedded

*florida*

DO THIS WHETHER YOU GET 'IT' OR NOT

 like applauding for a good performance

like making space on the immutable stage

 like texts to self, hoping for a platform in a parking lot of the future. a relic of speculation to hold decline at bay, with a note from an ethical ~better to keep you safe. in a digital squirrel wheel, i mean sq hill.

created and produced in Concrete and MDF, fabricated in most-VOCS paint and dipped forever-plastic. 

Greetings,                                                                                                                                                        from the Toxic

"NOSTAGIA IS THE ANALOG VERSION OF DECLINISM"

 this is a documentary about that it was.

bc we threw away his card. we aren't really sure how to be anymore. since we lack such diligence.

my ex has to remind me
that i don't actually like
the things i romanticize

that doesn't say much about the hygiene of remembrance

project titles:

 Business Pleasure

From the wrong side of the golf course *on the gulf, of course*

Geniuses of History

non-erotic power-bonding  (i think about this a lot, my MAN)

When AI slowly forgets your face. smooth one over on it. (description on my defunct weird facebook)

That 3D MASH animation I almost finished.2020.

A cross cut
an indiscernible pace
my sister at 3am
on CCTV

WHEN IM SWIMMING
WHEN IM SURFING
WHEN IM AT PEACE (AT PEAK)
IN NATURE (IN THE SLOW)
ON A VACATION (MOVING)
IN THE AFTERTIMES (APOCALYPSE)
FALL VICTIM TO DECEIT, I MEAN DECENT MAPS OF TRAVEL 2020-21

cities are not an act, without play

Every day the path was smaller, more
                                                   obscured.
With a light gesture. Two a day, 6 hours.

Half a word to cover the moist mouth. the most mouth.

And, at night, this was an SOS|flashlight|hard-cranked battery,
                                                                  weathered radio    in the country. every country.
my brother gave me a birthday
of the slow-moving apocalypse       -it's still going-

RIP currents death: malaria in the US, where I left materiality
ozone elevation, wildfires make smoke+fire, smog where i am
an infection-call OSHA-on parks&rec.       Are we going to trip?

Something silken in a state of sick and tired , trolling cities , and critique the space you've invited me in and welcomed me into , and i spit on your lifestyle because i am a serious artist. will you keep inviting? as long as i satisfy all contracts in a state of astute and cute , cosplay a child of the earth and fatherly.

(june-july 2023)

for a long time, we used disrespect as a form of protest - I stand by that.

 illustrative~prefigurative

but the ppl didn't get it. wrapped-fingers. circa 2017.

but, like
full politic
bodies matter.

I want a post too,
but that isn't accomplished
by minimizing the margins.

seminar: even when language is i'm perfect

 how to tell ppl you are going to burn their house down from the inside and they let you
IN ACADEMIA
w/o a social media presence +w/o updating your website in literal years
IN_RESIDENCE
 was going to write this and then realize: be white, look (look) girlish, only talk to ppl older than you.

& it's a
gesture,
which is
remarkable
to be sure,
even if the
language/action
is imperfect.

 

MA$$IVE A$$UREDNE$$

$ i almost cried for youth $

t issue

 I don't have a kitchen table.

    don't need practicality.
    don't need tradition (at another's expense).

    don't need protection (from those without).
    don't need safety (provided by those who prescribe to a zero-sum).

SEVEN MONTHS - I am having a hard time, I am politically without a home.

earbud trick, hacked it

 longest time, intrusive urge

to call self a bubblegum butch,
open a wood shop where
ppl feel a comfort + safety

away from the 50yo grad student who kept them from making a single, proper sculpture during MFA

(i'm back from the past to make you all hate me more, again)

whyisitnotacompletedcircle?

 (mobility) ACCESS + FUTILITY (future)

thank you my brit friends for listening to me pontificate on the importance of the zed, once again

similarly - completed & then taken apart to build a new construction.

as in, theory without logic

as in, eating clean is a dead, tone-deaf praxis

1960, 1986, 2012, 2038 ZERo point zERO

 no history

no body

 no future

(even culturally globalization is altered now)

the illusion of whole-ness,,,,,,,,again

As a MONUMENT OF LACK

we like to think of myself as a small, unconfident documentary

the temporary 'document' action

   Invasive rules of engagement

Saves []

Sslots []

  -or- what remains

II. reflect on the harmony w environment
   disharmony with social utilization

several playful iterations of the PATH

 

Notes on Modernism + Utopias (no graphs)

 WHAT IS THE SPACE LACKING?

something about the landscape--

--and trajectory

--and normative space

as defined by context--

NICE TRY!
DREAMING THE BIOSPHERE
THEATER OF ALL POSSIBILITES
 

*LINA my love BO BARDO*

Pure Goss

 Formidable Honesty, Come. Hate we.

TIme-tricking

 May 27, 0:00 "Proposal Out" 

8:00pm. a visual essay. a clueless closet. is mean girls more iconic?

as a pictorial world on their birthday

*as a pictorial passing of time*