dramaturgy is more difficult to grasp when you are sleeping-w-t-enemy, too *real*?

like, lost sleep, cry-masturbated, showered-too-long to the knife, catatonic,
and then spewed self-hate-in-your-moms-mirror (because on top of it all), y


people who can afford "intellectually stimulating" camping trips
dreading it, never been to sleep-away-camp

imagining you were crying in front of them, which is the worst,
which is not because it is unattractive, but because it is 'weak'