even superfluous language, for language's sake, as a built construction upon which histories fill--I am all nostalgia and in-personals desire and regret

I have this problem, and I know it is a good problem, and, also an obvious one, but when we say we want something and set certain actions into motion, we get there. Like 6 months later--which is sight fulfilled faster than past, when all of my 2008 dreams came true in 2012--and we are fully (immature) like, "Do we even want it anymore?"

And, that is some futures-to-seek taroscope thing. I'm romantic about instant gratification. I'm exhausted by the idea of trying anymore. So make sure to make we wait longer. I don't know. I'm fully indoctrinated too. Some virtue. Some pining. A bullshit Jane Eyre and American Dream.