no attn is basically the same as all the attn, fyi

avoid we
not-new-at-this
we see
right-through-you

*why you so obsessssssssssed w me*

overdrama is hilarious, ask my safe-space

if anything cares,
we are not full-stop
caricatures of who you missed.

long and dead and waiting for
someone to justify that
queered being

it is just we-
              ed.

the light was buried, shine

just like me, i keep my knife sharp

studying horoscope, my apologies, theory

we raise our hands for the color red
i want to hustle
on your shoulder
if it's possible to
let the power show
--
you moving states, talking to me
i don't like it easy i don't like it, the
                                  stray weight
 

the game, though.it's always the same,and players are hard to find...we don't inspire trust--blame performativity

I can touch you,
but you cannot Touch We

have you seen the flag for me.at

@mindmynothingmorethanskies

graygraygray--so alien

flat gray, white, black, green. other one w purple.

we are now, snorgasm

+++++++++++++++++++++++++


*Not at all like 2010, right-left,
throw that 'pansexual'
around.

Rexxxy.

*Not at all like middle-school,
"bye, bi.s"

*Not at all like kindergarten,
I'll show you mine if you...

playful secrets* *adventure time

*that james franco movie

v
V
v
they want me, but                                                                                       only part of the time
                                                                                                                                          *alone

I'm in the dark

reading

you dont touch me

hahaha

but

this is real

"where are they" emoting to screens "they are 'liking' something right now and it's not me"

emot ing
to screen
     sss

remember we before you ate me

im a cannibal too,
we all, production is mean
you go back to hers

*some jealousy shit*
+desire and jealousy+
same source, makes worse

isn't working.we are always in different cities.and i-put-spell-on-you, because you're not mine

that is proprietary language, and we do not play

tattooed .overs never like to .eminisce

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r.ight

suck your tolds. scream bang, bang, you shot me down--that song--my baby shot me down...wht's tht thng bt bng t ntns t fck wth?

i want to wash all of your clothes
and warm you when you are cold
and scratch you, you've got an inch

+starring in the barrel of an armed gun, because it's yours+

all of my text messages are from my mom, happy friday

and i never wanted to hear from
                                       anyways



from way up inside me
                      --my head

I'm still in bitters

orange you glad i didn't say...

"you are smarter than that"

you are cooler than that

the coldest, and i never                   thought i'd be beat




and
i
am
not convinced you are
any better than me in, all-in ways,
but if you think you are, and you do.







byyyyeeeeeeeeeeeeee

our labors are the same, you know...

you admit mine are less.

but, we make it look so easy too.

i wrote this line to say, wish everything was made

we aren't okay,
but i hope you
still can recall

.all my names.

cryptic4cryptic

reverse image, search me
on all fours
i have a flower too

tattooed .lovers never like to .reminisce

that was my most-baller text move ever
and
i wasn't even drinking

my student debt loves dead party girls too

Learned all initiative from 90s movies: 2 new credit cards for my futures

So last week, but if we die within the next 2 weeks we want everyone to know we are psychic

It is good to be reminded I am the sign of bravery, thanks.
Also, we almost drove off a cliff earlier, while Adele was playing...
                                                                                                        and it seemed fitting. HeArts

resurrecting?

Heard this kid ask his friends circa 16, "Have you ever given a guy you really like a ride and played a song that said, 'I really like you,' and he never gets it!?!" And, we were all internal freak-out like: yes, dude, all the time, and the song is the Every F*cking Day (and it never worked)...and now we know it is a high school move so, nm

flesh w/o blood is right

full rehearsal. we cannot even begin
to understand how to disempower the 
self enough to be 'acceptable'.

And, maybe some equal pay in afforded authenticity. Kill-we-identity.

those unwilling to acknowledge their position of power.
And, we cannot even begin to understand how to denigrate
and disempower the self enough to be 'acceptable' to them.

And, you know if I'm willing at all, they are like-me,

whatever that means. Not-men (the best ppl).
Honestly,
ask me 2015, be biffs. And, we are full for love with
mad
respects, but we looking for reciprocals.

too unlikable for employs

We are so broken.

The career sector

in my sign is fucking broken.

 

Repeat: Also, head_up_ass@6weekdepression, also I will disappear soon

Drunk-searcher jobs really puts a stop to Thesis-writer. Why would anyone listen to anything we have to say? Total fails, all wrong moves. Least successful person I know, for one. I am also wondering if the breakdown is real.

And, maybe the whole unattractive-branding scheme, was a fiery failure after all

evaluate respect , encounter lately, 
a disparity between what I value
others see as value--invested interest 
fans make ppl confident that you have............something 
to offer them as well.                                        It is easy. 

we just always wanted...intellectual high horse, I guess

Privated, ppl won't actually get how complicated this is/will be, and how I am leveling family with followers and that won't go over well

Things that actually indicate value, we finance, start with an 'f': family, friends, fans, f          Things that actually indicate value, we finance, start with an 'f': family, friends, fans, followers.     ollowers.

but, we are different in personals, and I'm only interested from afars

if we are being honest, and we have any guts

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MMZmw-1wj5Q

eating sugar

Reconciling real hard in deconstructs

If you have no family and you have no partner, do others see no worth?
And, who are fans, and friends? If you have no followers, do you have no worth?

That isn't actually a question. If you have no followers, you have no worth.
Self-determined worth is notice all counting. A nothing. There is no value there.

not-the-type-of-person-that-needs-someone-else-to-say-they-hold-value

I want everyone to know I called it. I am psychic

never learned that skill

How do
You say
Need
Help

?Mhail?

Fairly certain life would be 100% better if I were 10% more attractive.

I didn't say that

may mistaken, sick.of being a difference-in-example

This fucking song is playing from the summer before graduate school,
and, it is cheesy and melodramatic and terrible uk pop. and, I would sing
along to it knowing what I was saying no to, what people and possibilities
I was closing on, ones more successful than we. but, I bet on me. it was all bullshit

better to die in a fiery crash now than actually make it to failures

Seeking: sugar bb job, past my prime

maybe this is the space we perform least...diaries

For real though, sorry to break this whole thing. Perform we. But I just got done breaking from thesis-writing with drunk job-searching and realized I squandered my time and missed all major res+fellowships opps and teaching positions. Being deeps-6week+depression. Total in bonehead. And should have spent less time being honest+critical+performingopposition and did that thing they always ask: smile. Why does anyone listen to anything I have to say? A fucking joke. And in this space I don't even get that illusion-of-intellectual-superiority-thing. I'm, like, 100% the least successful person I know.

I want you in my sun, genetically modified rising

"One way to tell if something is a chronotope is to try to have no view of it at all.'
When I understand the ways in which everyone is talking, I'm going to pretend like it justifies my importance within our very insular culture: bacteria. parasitic fact.

the hybrid, the illicit, the uncategorized being

We wanted to grab your hand and lead you into one of the dark recesses,
But, you would have been embarrassed, you would have felt on display.

is this the climax you /wanted/

We are just waiting for them
to find someone new so we
can stop thinking about...

hottest tarot card

The hermit

too fragile for fb, and too sure we are willing to follow-up

Because, despite being (indirectly) told that we are an unethical-trash-person and not-an-artist, I'm just gonna keep doing me, way out in opens (like all good+honest ppl) in all contrived presentation and performativity (like all hypocritical+fake ppl). We thinking. We figuring. Because, the idea that I am the type of person who is just going to chill on estranged-and-self-righteous-abuse is to categorically under-evaluate we, and is just false, like most emotional drivers barreling at me. Super lately. Bleeding like help-me-this-isnt-the-70s-nor-80s-nor-90s, we feminist, but better read in queer.er theories. Make we new. Make own new, but someone will try to rip it from you and bastardize it, and remove its definition from your control, I've never seen Survivor (sounds pretty fucking dramatic, though. awesome), but, whatever, I like how ridiculous it is: Reality Artist.

*a picture of that meme: when you hurt my feelings, it makes me stronger*

*I wonder if anyone fears me? If so, that would be both cool and sad*

we Teflon like you expect

It's never good when your sister says, "Don't you think you're going to go full prison-style in like a year?"

when is art no longer seen as transformation of material, and the thing it becomes is I'm allowed to be different than the thing it was: when people think you are a woman and think you are 'mean'

That painting isn't about the subject matter, nor the application of yellow paint, nor what that shade means, nor paint as a medium, but it is about only that one specific tube of cadmium yellow and represents nothing else.

Rumplestiltskin(sp?)

When did neoliberalism catch up with me
With fairy tales
???

a mirror shows the self in a specified space, a smarter mirror shows the self in an ever-expanding network (text dump)

*project we more we like it*

+seen blank and open and imaginary. written all out. green+

*giving bodily multiple, wholeness becomes an opening*

+to be taken without consents, context we+

+in the middle of the night. you will anyway+

*we perform unnamed social experiments*

+digital platforms represent a translation. of some call reals+

*we are under all constructions, all the time*

+sometimes point to this: regenerate every four months+

*we are just an illusion trying to change the world*

*if incarnation is the image become flesh*

+and, we have the softest skin, because no one can touch it+

*excarnation is flesh become image*

*our connection is never lost*

*feel me. looping for hours*

+they said that this was what they were waiting for all these years,

and it was vulnerability. so we said: hey, buddy, go fuck yourself+

*next time you speak to we like that*

+expect something in-roles, warmth and softs+

*misunderstand what we say*

+remember that we forgive someone every day+

*we are magnanimous-like*

+because we have to be+

*something about screaming into pillows at night*

+and, later, dreaming of ripping your

thick neck open with bare-like hands+

*bro down with your throat out*

*we perform with ritual rhetoric*

*a billboard of my smiling face next to the word AGGRESSIVE*

*repeat: a billboard of my smiling face next to the word AGGRESSIVE*

+we don’t see these images, middle-in-america+

*we are in-body precarious*

+they said articulating the wound would make us. full-on serial

killers. but they are all-in patriarchy. and listening is certain debt+

*they make ownerships and we aren’t bitten tongues*

+dad alert+

*rubbing up is pretty physical*

+can I get reimbursed for this+

*I’m a troll!!!*

+aren’t we all+

*want is never a reason*

+dictate my appearance, you know you always do+

*coming for you. bleaching hair every time we-victimized*

+specific bodies appropriated by doms+

*protection is typing control*

+we are used to alienate more other or another+

*sit opposite the most powerful person in the room*

+in institutionals, like crisp collared shirt. it never works+

*territory: remind me of my body, remind me how alien*

+cyborg+

*some social defeat, we critique and participate*

*we are the ecosystem*

+also+

*the system is bad*

(refreshingly, She doesn’t become involved with any of them)

=========

*neoliberalism in facsimile, we are powerful

in our namelessness too, lack informationals*

+deny any language of definition, even.

breathing sacrifice. but all-in impotent+

*because, we have form*

+form is a hell of a drug+

*are we also a catalyst for self-harm

and loneliness? economic crashings*

+we make children poor and sick+

*connect like some micromovements on QVC*

+we networked social, we sphere+

*full-on beauty and servicing*

+the future (of ai) is female+

*some major sage once said: realness is a losing battle*

+retains all the pleasurable aspects,

without all of its serious side effects+

*queer my product, more identity than self. buy we*

+authenticity is an affect of personal commodity+

*and, at this point, it is sadder if we delete it*

*some endearing monetization of self*

+you are liked. follows with labors, who in benefits the wound*

*we want our gender expectations to pay for themselves, confessionals.

performance is industry. sending the bill. online for branded selves*

+it is only called self-exploitation when we stand to profit. we $$$+

*and, we are fully problematic in our dangerous prescriptions too*

you the best, blondie

+dad language. foucault, we love you. dark and mystic, my

telephone number. purveyor of internets, my heterotopia,

my subjectivity, my surveilled, my history of sexuality.

“sometimes you gotta fuck the patriarchy” and better to

end with love of life—everyday is every art. who is beauty?

those who do not deny but stay present in othered. spaces

still haunt, daddy-man. some master-texter. a colonizing

narrative. write we body. never as bad as lacan, some mirror

stage, and even with all points, sharp. it’s insular. ruminating

is luxury. we know. sneaking in. only simulate with workerbee

and serial skiller. we privilege af. come and see. some pasts

with self-important narrative, ability to point finger, and

interventions. some recent detraction from all social practicality.

we don’t think our culture is better than yours. you know, of

course we do. care and respect for self will always outweigh

you, but think about a different voice saying that, some reaction

of less, some reaction of more—all dependence. call we semiotics+

+dads like to read tiqqun and take it way too for serious, like face value.

a token: some derogatory and painful experiment in essentialism. we

are consumpt. young thing, so are you. and. you the worst, oldie.+