White girls, running through their minds
Sub:this is about race for victimhood id
Tuesday, February 28, 2017
their curiosity confounds we away
And, we are just an open, imaginary, green swing,
Project onto, with all the unmanageable. Why we
still so seen blank? Written all out, but not written
All over, may we buy you. Wild horses couldn't take
Project onto, with all the unmanageable. Why we
still so seen blank? Written all out, but not written
All over, may we buy you. Wild horses couldn't take
*you are welcome*
&sometimes we misinform to see if you'll correct
&sometimes we use the 'wrong' word to see your sideways glance, a stilted and polite response,
&sometimes we understand the horror and delight of consideration and ego safekeeping
&we also respect you a little less each time
&sometimes we use the 'wrong' word to see your sideways glance, a stilted and polite response,
&sometimes we understand the horror and delight of consideration and ego safekeeping
&we also respect you a little less each time
an advertisement for self
Some sage once told me that
realness is a losing battle,
"all the pleasurable aspects but
none of its serious side effects."
***
it puts the lotion on its skin
(it's me, but we don't lotion)
* *
it only uses things with single
ingredients, it's inflated self-worthy
*
realness is a losing battle,
"all the pleasurable aspects but
none of its serious side effects."
***
it puts the lotion on its skin
(it's me, but we don't lotion)
* *
it only uses things with single
ingredients, it's inflated self-worthy
*
an Arby's advert
Some sage once told me that
realness is a losing battle,
"all the pleasurable aspects and
all of its serious side effects."
realness is a losing battle,
"all the pleasurable aspects and
all of its serious side effects."
green-hued-90s-music-video, i thought we were obvious
and, somehow i can't believe that
we *gold star* and stilt, stilt, stilt,
(this happens when music plays)
what can a guy like me ever really
offer? a pronoun. Comes to speak to me
comes when speaks we
coming high above me
coming to speak--speak
trail off...thought we were done for debs
we *gold star* and stilt, stilt, stilt,
(this happens when music plays)
what can a guy like me ever really
offer? a pronoun. Comes to speak to me
comes when speaks we
coming high above me
coming to speak--speak
trail off...thought we were done for debs
they were somewhat afraid {peace sign} they were taking it out on me
hurry down. kicking back, far too soon.
*some song playing far out of tune*
i dream that i think of you {white lines}
*NPR-voice* is it in the data-gone mine?
cutting backs. future's past. settle up.
some tactic of the apocalypse *strumming*
you dream you know me {subtle fights}
*hungryman over you* and i. full stop.
*some song playing far out of tune*
i dream that i think of you {white lines}
*NPR-voice* is it in the data-gone mine?
cutting backs. future's past. settle up.
some tactic of the apocalypse *strumming*
you dream you know me {subtle fights}
*hungryman over you* and i. full stop.
please *not much sucking, I'm spitting mine out*
and it isn't too kind,
and it isn't too nice,
and it isn't too pretty,
nor is it too generous,
nor do we give too such a fuck.
there is a common ground. nature.
destiny.
nature.
destiny.
nature.
does anything seem so-calling
authentic yet, tell me, if there is
nothing wrong with luck--it's only a minute deep.
and it isn't too nice,
and it isn't too pretty,
nor is it too generous,
nor do we give too such a fuck.
there is a common ground. nature.
destiny.
nature.
destiny.
nature.
does anything seem so-calling
authentic yet, tell me, if there is
nothing wrong with luck--it's only a minute deep.
"thanks" like after a set, said real, real sweet. "thanks" lie after a set, like real, real down
it doesn't meat much
give me mine <some high pitch>
only [low key] in passe
only [on fleek] dirty,dirty means,
a falling out with unattributed, me
give me mine <some high pitch>
only [low key] in passe
only [on fleek] dirty,dirty means,
a falling out with unattributed, me
I found it! I feel like my previously teenaged brother today, this week, this life. Horoscope says things will be looking up, so...
we will burn this whole placed down
We say it again: bro down with your throat out--call me never.
Also, we like pie. For with vegans, we like a pie.
Do I have to S-P-E-L-L it out for you. nope, nah,
because certain invasive
OWLS will set out to, feel entitled
to both your gender and sexuality as much [] any-ol-perv []
Do I have to S-P-E-L-L it out for you. nope, nah,
because certain invasive
OWLS will set out to, feel entitled
to both your gender and sexuality as much [] any-ol-perv []
Sometimes you gotta tell a mister, "You don't known me."
Hey,
MR, don't presume to know we!
And, thought you'd notice better than
most that we like the taste of blood. For with vegans.
*surprise, surprise*
And, thought you'd notice better than
most that we like the taste of blood. For with vegans.
*surprise, surprise*
Saturday, February 25, 2017
sometimes we get too much credit
Everyone wants to think there is more to it.
There is! *some well-written facebook rants*
There is! *some well-written facebook rants*
in love with the shape of you. nothing else
Fishnet tights underneath jeans as both an extension of a high-waisted pant, and as a corset.
It's true, and I'll double down again *my rage only makes me stronger* posting on FB where they will never read it (read it: self-dep, sarcasm)
Future-fear is real. And, it's not just political this time. It is what
is irrationally cared and worried about the most: no collective, just
selfish-fucking-anxiety. We have no prospects. We are dying. We heard
the worst artist from our department (and I mean worst as human +
thinker + producer) be told they were being put up for a magazine's mfa
prize yesterday and we were like: this is the most backward thing I have
ever heard. <Also, old men should start to think about expanding
their definition of what is sculpture to at least the 19fucking90s>
And this is how old men help other men get ahead, by being so regressive
and exclusionary in their thinking...holy fuck, even this bullshit is
an allegory for what is happening--we don't have the energy rn. Because
we have nothing but "dress for success" and everyone else (everyone!
haha) has all the security, but we are desperate with voices that will
never be heard. Something about screaming into pillows at night.
thank you lana del rey
So actual excitement that one of the nights to
mass-witch-cast-dt-out-of-office
happens on my bday.
*an extra bitter spirituals for you*
mass-witch-cast-dt-out-of-office
happens on my bday.
*an extra bitter spirituals for you*
make poetry out of after effects tutorials
Imma open book.
FAR CRYing alone in dark,
certain underwear, no socks
FAR CRYing alone in dark,
certain underwear, no socks
Thursday, February 23, 2017
someday I will be rich or famous enough to pay someone. love me
It's all about finding out what works for you: like getting really sick and sad and scared and knowing that you have no one in close proximity that you can be emotionally vulnerable with (and knowing how pathetic that is because you have been in said city for over 2 years and emo-unavail is sort of your m.o. and you always thought "die alone" was the best future in MASH anyways) and making really bad videos, which are passable as art. Or, like, getting super drunk and filling out job and residency applications.
make me feel like i'm the only gggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrr in the world * like a hot pie
would the world be a better place if there was an "attractive tax"? eff you, attractive ppl...just kidding, let me look at you longer. thanks!
feel me . looping for hours .
tire tracks on legs, no virgin skin . territory
is tatted and it was a bad idea . oh well .
is tatted and it was a bad idea . oh well .
daydream
i drink my fill with the flowers, such a beautiful day.
we need a booze budget, happy gallery.
full service, no guilt, and day becomes night. FAM
when it comes for the patriarchy it's fuck or be fucked.
admittedly, sometimes both. ask me about my illustrator skills
(not good. they are not good)
admittedly, sometimes both. ask me about my illustrator skills
(not good. they are not good)
on a heavier note: I will flock to Amsterdam with the models and bloggers too
Free-bleeding. And it all got a little
too hopeful for a second. Some crash.
Hindsighting and now: there is no us in US.
too hopeful for a second. Some crash.
Hindsighting and now: there is no us in US.
*and if they only knew who we could pull
*maybe I'd get a little respect. Or, maybe they'd at least be flattered.
Be flattered! We aren't intrusive and we cute!
Be flattered! We aren't intrusive and we cute!
like a basic butch
I keep willing them to context me. In the middle of the night.
But they are far too play with me, cool. For that. Plus, in so much
fluff, they don't think of me in the middle of the night. And, whatever,
that is great. Fine. But, I still feel guilty when I zero-response throw my
phone down when it is just a message from a good friend. Good
friends aren't for texting back. We've already got that, like, locked.
They will never fucking text in the middle of the night,
too controlled, but that is what we relate to, so...
Also, full of conflict thinking of everything annoying they do. Fucking annoying. And it was never real anyway, it is just like everything else: never real but always somehow effing true.
But they are far too play with me, cool. For that. Plus, in so much
fluff, they don't think of me in the middle of the night. And, whatever,
that is great. Fine. But, I still feel guilty when I zero-response throw my
phone down when it is just a message from a good friend. Good
friends aren't for texting back. We've already got that, like, locked.
They will never fucking text in the middle of the night,
too controlled, but that is what we relate to, so...
Also, full of conflict thinking of everything annoying they do. Fucking annoying. And it was never real anyway, it is just like everything else: never real but always somehow effing true.
Ze needed to know wanting was possible and We needed character development, and sorry to be unromantic, but it was necessary and fun, right? And benign, right? Made ZWe feel good, right?
Sure.
Working overtime,
kind of pantomime.
But, last fall, no one was going to come,
w/o much hope around, spring is worse.
Don't
leave us so, it happens though,
I will meet you whole. It's strange.
*But, only partly untrue. So sure some is up to you.*
Falling for the bottle blonde. All wrongs.
Working overtime,
kind of pantomime.
But, last fall, no one was going to come,
w/o much hope around, spring is worse.
Don't
leave us so, it happens though,
I will meet you whole. It's strange.
*But, only partly untrue. So sure some is up to you.*
Falling for the bottle blonde. All wrongs.
things are simple. we are simple. and samaritans
In a way, maybe,
They just seemed like They needed the attention.
Fair to give them mine.
But we still play,
*baby, I get nervous, just being in your service*
Some same path, you and I.
They just seemed like They needed the attention.
Fair to give them mine.
But we still play,
*baby, I get nervous, just being in your service*
Some same path, you and I.
Tuesday, February 21, 2017
they said, "this is what i've been waiting for all these years."
...and, it was just we, being vulnerable <w/o liquor> for once
*we are just the worst. the worst kind of man. a very bad man*
*we are just the worst. the worst kind of man. a very bad man*
push candy, and maybe that is what honesty is for, a thing so subjective it is already unreal,
'truth' is a divining tool
I'm only asking for a friend:
You know when you see old-friend, long-time-no-see, talking about traveling,
you know, someone you are very comfortable with, no smalling feat, breathe,
someone you wonder about, why you have never gotten together, someone
who has has said before--making you question for a second--has said before,
drunk + high, "if only you were a guy, you'd be perfect," for a second, stomach
drop, you aren't enough, for a second, stomach ache, they have some unspoken
want, who knowing now, all-new-rarely-before-maybe-first-time-in-five-years
you too have a want, some stuff, some not-quite-desire, but interest, probably
dead & vapid, some superficial gone-when-gotten thing, how it goes in fantasy,
but, yes, now knowing so-called-crush, they say withs defeat, "I hope you get
everything you ever wanted," and if you were to think about it too long you
would be stuck--the worst--stuck, you'd just (over-drama) die, because you'd
give them anything they could possible ask for (fucking anything), despite how
you feel: it would ruin what is here, repeat: it would ruin what is already here?
you know, someone you are very comfortable with, no smalling feat, breathe,
someone you wonder about, why you have never gotten together, someone
who has has said before--making you question for a second--has said before,
drunk + high, "if only you were a guy, you'd be perfect," for a second, stomach
drop, you aren't enough, for a second, stomach ache, they have some unspoken
want, who knowing now, all-new-rarely-before-maybe-first-time-in-five-years
you too have a want, some stuff, some not-quite-desire, but interest, probably
dead & vapid, some superficial gone-when-gotten thing, how it goes in fantasy,
but, yes, now knowing so-called-crush, they say withs defeat, "I hope you get
everything you ever wanted," and if you were to think about it too long you
would be stuck--the worst--stuck, you'd just (over-drama) die, because you'd
give them anything they could possible ask for (fucking anything), despite how
you feel: it would ruin what is here, repeat: it would ruin what is already here?
w/e this is my electric chair
it is about the dissolution of 'self' in an increasingly pervasive social.
and stuff #ffff
and stuff #ffff
in 3 years when honey booboo emerges as a totally respectable, oscar-nominated actress (how old is she--at least 18, right?)...
we can't imagine the world in 3 years rn (or at least the US)
*there is no us in US
*there is no us in US
*changed to poetry
-also, i don't care if you think this is mean-spirited or tmi or w/e. i'm not a quiet person! so what
-also, soa website has like zero seo rn
_I thought the conclusion to this story was going to be "what if this person is myself!?!?"
-like, "oh, no, is my work male-centric?!?!"
-all work is prob accidentally male-centric, even in it's not-man-ness...that is the sad thing, they don't take we stand-alone
_Kevin Brophy no, like you are the person that gave yourself a hard time and you have to delete emails you've sent yourself
-oh, no. you know who...but w/e!
-end of movie is NOT a twist where she kills herself/is the patriarchy
-also, soa website has like zero seo rn
_I thought the conclusion to this story was going to be "what if this person is myself!?!?"
-like, "oh, no, is my work male-centric?!?!"
-all work is prob accidentally male-centric, even in it's not-man-ness...that is the sad thing, they don't take we stand-alone
_Kevin Brophy no, like you are the person that gave yourself a hard time and you have to delete emails you've sent yourself
-oh, no. you know who...but w/e!
-end of movie is NOT a twist where she kills herself/is the patriarchy
This is what happens when I need to order lumber and finish an il design~but then read an article about Kristen Stewart's ex Soko, who hates septum piercings and I'm like, septum piercings are cool. back off, dad!
We so, so, so vanilla. Please tell we I'm not the only one that worries
about not being adventurous enough--barely used this body. Gonna get
that septum piercing I've wanted since I was 11. That'll show everyone.
Also, gonna self-pierce, because I'm hardcore. And, I have a cold, fever
delirium. It's stuffy, stuffy nose stabbing time. I hope I get an
infection! Is this my 4th quarter-life crisis, or just
early-mid-life-crisis?..don't answer that.
they can't all be gems--why am I pink logo, why with the shirt? who?
G, J, H, and me, if an undergrad didn't make this..!
Am I being told I am a girl? But, you are right, women don't need heads.
()read sarcasm()
Well, mannequins actually don't. we guess.
Am I being told I am a girl? But, you are right, women don't need heads.
()read sarcasm()
Well, mannequins actually don't. we guess.
when they don't answer back--they hate you!
blame it on the fever! it must be the fever!
4dreams, we don't even know words.
4dreams, we don't even know words.
Monday, February 20, 2017
other prospects got on w a y better than t h e hermit
You have met someone who is going to slip through your fingers if you don't start putting out the right signals. You know what those signals are so start flashing the green light for go!
*never said we wanted it easy. Never said "real". Want the slipping, it's all about the slipping*
*never said we wanted it easy. Never said "real". Want the slipping, it's all about the slipping*
Sunday, February 19, 2017
it's all about service
roles we expect...
but, yo, it is more
it's about othering...
but, wait, we're not done
it is about object, alien, cybourgeois
but, yo, it is more
it's about othering...
but, wait, we're not done
it is about object, alien, cybourgeois
the future (of ai) is female
AI, in and of itself, is genderless...so, job market ing
and we hope to never make you comforted
and we hope to continually misinform you
and we hope to never make you comforted
and we hope to continually misinform you
not having a pet is straight up masochism
Even
if you're not the type of person to really understand the concept of
missing someone, it's nice to say it. Plus, maybe that is what that
feeling is...who the fuck knows.
Oh, gud, I just remembered my dead-sweet-angel cat and my dead-badass-hilarious grandma...I do know! And, I never miss any of you, not really, everything is a fucking lie. And, I want Dolly back from the dead. Fuck this fucking life!
Oh, gud, I just remembered my dead-sweet-angel cat and my dead-badass-hilarious grandma...I do know! And, I never miss any of you, not really, everything is a fucking lie. And, I want Dolly back from the dead. Fuck this fucking life!
Posts like, feels like, so what, mine's 'criticality'.
When a v specific artist who's already 10 minutes late decides to get
coffee and says to the barista, "Charge it to Carnegie Mellon,
fuck Carnegie Mellon, they can afford it." I'm like, "Dude, bro,
broseph, I'd rather them pay for my skowhegan application, or pay for
the entirety of my thesis materials." But, yeah, sure, funny lecture
though. Can't wait for the studio visit.
And, I am terrified that we are vetting a partnership of...idk, prestige over intellect...esp after said artist "loves Pittsburgh," and "walked to highland park," and repeatedly asked about squirrel hill. *Nobody outside Pittsburgh wants to know about sq fucking hill. I'm going to lose my mind.
And, I am terrified that we are vetting a partnership of...idk, prestige over intellect...esp after said artist "loves Pittsburgh," and "walked to highland park," and repeatedly asked about squirrel hill. *Nobody outside Pittsburgh wants to know about sq fucking hill. I'm going to lose my mind.
compliments are not transformative
Okay, okay, I think I just figured out how to describe a productive
critique: okay, okay, I don't want you to tear me a new one, but I don't want the same one back.
we want a.j. hair from foxfire again
Finally replaced we marriage ring, and 1st day out, already gone. Lost.
Some allegory about ownership. Guess we aren't meant to be. 'Diamond'
too. V value. Admittedly it never fit. Not much actually does. Will you
at least still hold my hair out of my face when we vomit? We want to
vomit all over you...forever. SweeeeeD.
Finally sending someone a text message you've been dying to for ages, and then when they don't respond within 3 minutes pretending like it was meant for someone else. Just kiddds, no shame
Manipulating
someone's view of you by sending a text with a salutation to another
person (a fake person with the same first 2 letters of the name as the person
it was actually sent to) in order to give someone false insight into
your character...or to give someone insight into your actual character
through surreptitious means..
or, just for character development, or need (literary) character flaw or conflict
or, just for character development, or need (literary) character flaw or conflict
clip of that movie w heather graham where she beats herself up at the end that i saw on late night cable in the mid-2000s
We want it to be last summer.
Oh, fuck. Oh, fuck. Oh, fuck.
Okay. I'm fine.
Oh, fuck. Oh, fuck. Oh, fuck.
Okay. I'm fine.
This is fun: rich-nyc-painter/seminal-pictures-generation-artist-arm-candy said to me,
(cornered me, arm on wall so we couldn't move), said to me, "You could
have picked a better boy name than Kevin." "It's my given name." (and
it's a great name, so common, perfect) "Oh, I thought you were just a
hip, cool trans kid." (because it's a trend, obvi. read sarcasm) "Well, I am trans."
changed to 'poetry'
what do you do if the google search of "your name + artist" brings up a
person who made your life hell for the first half of grad school/a
person that you delete emails and texts from so you don't have to see
their name because it makes you sick to your stomach/a person whose
violently emotional demeanor is something you have to withstand on a
regular basis/a person whose
self-important-unresearched-backward-70's-style-male-centric work is
diametrically opposed to yours comes up as the only other artist in
"related searches"? also what piece of shit is looking me up before or
after him? how do you tell google: opposite day! how do you say: yo,
google, i thought you surveilled me, didn't you note the months' old
Linkedin decline? we want no association.
and, it (easiest) bruises, bleeds, scars
Vulnerability is attractive to a very specific type.
And, they just want to enact pain, to leave a mark.
And, they just want to enact pain, to leave a mark.
Thursday, February 16, 2017
repeat, in-silence-we-wetter
like great job: wish so hard
everyone would say, "really? you?"
BUT
at least this is perfect for my desperation appeal,
been trying to jumpstart that for sure whiles now.
BUT
like great job: the one person that might be smarter
like the one person we cannot read, cannot read~well...
AND
so gross, though too, (also v glad for my teen dream journaling)
too careful, and too sweet (i know normally i would be cynical,
i mean i am, wth, not-real, right?), too deep wounds,
AND
like my clumsy words will just tear a whole, whole...field of--
think we mean, tiny mouse. [we def offend] and we left self
wide-open this time, wide open to everyone else, also too easy
everyone would say, "really? you?"
BUT
at least this is perfect for my desperation appeal,
been trying to jumpstart that for sure whiles now.
BUT
like great job: the one person that might be smarter
like the one person we cannot read, cannot read~well...
AND
so gross, though too, (also v glad for my teen dream journaling)
too careful, and too sweet (i know normally i would be cynical,
i mean i am, wth, not-real, right?), too deep wounds,
AND
like my clumsy words will just tear a whole, whole...field of--
think we mean, tiny mouse. [we def offend] and we left self
wide-open this time, wide open to everyone else, also too easy
It's Not Going to Happen
cause "she's" so high above me
and, i smiled at them and immediately out-of-seat-and-over-by-me (i never had tried an invitation before, at least not purposefully) but, then we shyness. we didn't even talk to them. sometimes we just sit or stand silent in presence...or talk to everyone else...and acknowledge only in aloneness...near-alone...i think we're alone now...maybe they are embarrassed to-be-seen-with, or maybe they know in-secret-we-wetter, but punish me, It's Not Going to Happen
and, i smiled at them and immediately out-of-seat-and-over-by-me (i never had tried an invitation before, at least not purposefully) but, then we shyness. we didn't even talk to them. sometimes we just sit or stand silent in presence...or talk to everyone else...and acknowledge only in aloneness...near-alone...i think we're alone now...maybe they are embarrassed to-be-seen-with, or maybe they know in-secret-we-wetter, but punish me, It's Not Going to Happen
watch we need
just kidding!
click-baiting
Real question though: is it possible to catfish the dom? the dad? the big bad? someone powerful...like a president?
calling it re:searching
Have I told you about my newest script yet? "if the john moves along, she can sew it back on"
click-baiting
Real question though: is it possible to catfish the dom? the dad? the big bad? someone powerful...like a president?
calling it re:searching
Have I told you about my newest script yet? "if the john moves along, she can sew it back on"
distance does make me more
don't be mad about it
ddmmm
i can hold you from here
ddmmm
and you cannot blame my joy
ddmmm
touching down is for keys
ddmmm
we silent cry for free
ddmmm
vchat
and, it's not about, it's never about, it's always about me
wechat
direct during my message *modesty*
ddmmm
i can hold you from here
ddmmm
and you cannot blame my joy
ddmmm
touching down is for keys
ddmmm
we silent cry for free
ddmmm
vchat
and, it's not about, it's never about, it's always about me
direct during my message *modesty*
upload me to the cloud
sorry i just got a little angry
and before that: sometimes you can't smell the cheese until you type.it.out
i'll never predictably use the word "beautiful" again, we compromise
and before that: sometimes you can't smell the cheese until you type.it.out
i'll never predictably use the word "beautiful" again, we compromise
do not presume that you know we
ppl are taking that "ring" thing wrong,
we are talking about phone alerts, bros
*not marriage shit* fuccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFLM
we are talking about phone alerts, bros
*not marriage shit* fuccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccccmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmlllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFLM
thanks for your patience, love-stuff:
I am lost in your sparkling rights.
Your most hot, wet body politics.
I will try to teach you how to grow your
hair into territory they cannot control.
Touch is only to read your palm
in some calming social lube.
Your most hot, wet body politics.
I will try to teach you how to grow your
hair into territory they cannot control.
Touch is only to read your palm
in some calming social lube.
we read work, and it was good, but, it was too hopeful
but, stay hopeful
even in its offputs
because, they are stripping rights, rn
even in its offputs
because, they are stripping rights, rn
maybe youre the presence. living other people. they got their bruises
same
regret
trance in+out
----------------
trans in+out
the thing about performativity is that it can be queered both ways, but fuck if even the most-woke will note, causal we are full in this gaslighting sitch. no one actually listens to the words you say
to their face
"you are as straight as your hair"
"100percent, just afraid"
"but youre totally a girl"
&we hate on him, they don't
but he said the same thing about them..."all millennials look queer"
regret
trance in+out
----------------
trans in+out
the thing about performativity is that it can be queered both ways, but fuck if even the most-woke will note, causal we are full in this gaslighting sitch. no one actually listens to the words you say
to their face
"you are as straight as your hair"
"100percent, just afraid"
"but youre totally a girl"
&we hate on him, they don't
but he said the same thing about them..."all millennials look queer"
mission review, some text too
funny, they are just words. simple ones
really, poetry of me is all in the brainwashing
don't take it out on we, it was the brainwashing, the brainwashing
i want to be dirty
really, poetry of me is all in the brainwashing
don't take it out on we, it was the brainwashing, the brainwashing
i want to be dirty
in the shower is where you lose all thought, because you have all the ideas, write with clarity and biting poetics, and the running water steady noises some minds, but the head goes off--the song has lyrics and you can hear them now. the music is the mine and you lost...your effing shit again, bonerrrrr
in your pretty prison
you
think you
love me
you
think you
love me
bodies on affect, do little bleeds heal?
micromovements
(on QVC)
microneedling
(our free)
microaggressions
(cut deeper)
find generous in criticality, and
self-help-we structure: Dad bod
(on QVC)
microneedling
(our free)
microaggressions
(cut deeper)
find generous in criticality, and
self-help-we structure: Dad bod
is a transformation movie from the nineties
<we love nineties>
queering identities, alternate to Dad, preposition, a million dollars,
but fully problematic in its own dangerous prescriptions, no wifi
queering identities, alternate to Dad, preposition, a million dollars,
but fully problematic in its own dangerous prescriptions, no wifi
magic erasure correctives
not leading with best, like in titled, "language is important to you"
not best in showing, preemptive response, "have you heard of lawrence weiner?"
smh
do not make me barf/laugh/wishUharm
not best in showing, preemptive response, "have you heard of lawrence weiner?"
smh
do not make me barf/laugh/wishUharm
Wednesday, February 15, 2017
big industrial machine
things are different today,
disappear. studio + craft,
the rest of the world has changed...
commercial, the texture...set, type
disappear. studio + craft,
the rest of the world has changed...
commercial, the texture...set, type
i know my mickie reads
and they are all love
and cozy
not-quite
chill, twin
b.o.
of favorite things, soul sisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
and cozy
not-quite
chill, twin
b.o.
of favorite things, soul sisssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
the same rich past you+i
used in aloof, so fucking jade
now, works in reverse
over-eager and excitable~
~want our poker back
now, works in reverse
over-eager and excitable~
~want our poker back
Deepness is a thing not a place
I don't actually believe anything I say either
What are emotions, even?
What are emotions, even?
Tuesday, February 14, 2017
this is the gift of me
i really think i pissed someone off this time,
and, i thought i would care more, would've
thought being 'unliked' by them, unlinked,
specifically by them would've hurt, would've
caused stress and paranoia, but biggest fears
are often true: guess i don't give a fuck about
the opinion of anyone else but myself--and
that is scary. out of sight, out of mind, 6mo-crush
and, i thought i would care more, would've
thought being 'unliked' by them, unlinked,
specifically by them would've hurt, would've
caused stress and paranoia, but biggest fears
are often true: guess i don't give a fuck about
the opinion of anyone else but myself--and
that is scary. out of sight, out of mind, 6mo-crush
Monday, February 13, 2017
well, damn, your horoscope says you value modesty
i'm screwed.
why am i even looking.
jk, i'm not even looking.
why am i even looking.
jk, i'm not even looking.
i love having a diary
it is bad-teenage-poetry
so sad, so fucking sad
i love it
loves it
we smiling as we type
*i am your idol*me.e.me*
*distance makes me more*
so sad, so fucking sad
i love it
loves it
we smiling as we type
*i am your idol*me.e.me*
*distance makes me more*
you know we: painful and conscious <:> you know we: not grateful, not cautious
displaced urges
it is hard
spasms of denial
crawling, hastily-membered, low-budget parade
*we ache for denial* *and we are your favorite author* *incarnate, we promise*
*ask my mental illness*
it is hard
spasms of denial
crawling, hastily-membered, low-budget parade
*we ache for denial* *and we are your favorite author* *incarnate, we promise*
*ask my mental illness*
and i wanted to say this during...but you were being cold...and i was laughing to ignore...and probably was ahh, not-your-favorite. i know. i know it now: i am not-your-favorite, and i hope you two have a beautiful life together. guess he has a penis, if you're into that sort of thing. w/e. but, all bratting aside, good riddance, and i'll still let you know
usually i see your work as creating a dynamic of change, where difference can alter the landscape over time. this can happen over multiple mediums, aesthetics, and it didn't this time.
i can see the poetics in wires tightening and releasing, along with the text, along with Your words for once, but hold-all-personals some sexual, but not 8maybe post-election depressions8
where is all that hope, not just symbolic, but happening. embedded in the code, the actual thing. if you acknowledge the power of language, how can you miss that 9now0 in your own workings. not one for stagnancy, there should still be a chance for my body. avatar. through presence to create change. where difference inserted in space can over time alter the language, the structure of sameness
&&&&&&&7777777&&&&&&&
why does everyone think i have no chance?
are you too good for me? that's not real!
i can see the poetics in wires tightening and releasing, along with the text, along with Your words for once, but hold-all-personals some sexual, but not 8maybe post-election depressions8
where is all that hope, not just symbolic, but happening. embedded in the code, the actual thing. if you acknowledge the power of language, how can you miss that 9now0 in your own workings. not one for stagnancy, there should still be a chance for my body. avatar. through presence to create change. where difference inserted in space can over time alter the language, the structure of sameness
&&&&&&&7777777&&&&&&&
why does everyone think i have no chance?
are you too good for me? that's not real!
we see with problematics for the first half, but, damn daddy
+crass and simple souls who reduce fucking2fucking
who are too childish for the grownup world of suburbs
too uncivilized to give a shit
too arrogant to respect daddy
trust only their own animal
prowling for emotional thrills and excitement
disgusting, nasty
violent bitches teeth shiv icepick up his asshole
*they knew they could get away with it*
we are cool
skirting asexuality
-the nicest women are raving sex maniacs-mid 20 cent
who are too childish for the grownup world of suburbs
too uncivilized to give a shit
too arrogant to respect daddy
trust only their own animal
prowling for emotional thrills and excitement
disgusting, nasty
violent bitches teeth shiv icepick up his asshole
*they knew they could get away with it*
we are cool
skirting asexuality
-the nicest women are raving sex maniacs-mid 20 cent
some wall text: there is no text on this page
some abuse is understandable
but with use make anxious care
touch we
touch we
touch we
touch we
but with use make anxious care
touch we
touch we
touch we
touch we
okay, we've decided we could totally seclude in the woods for 4 months, via 15k
visit us, 4h 6h 8h away from civ, hold we in the dark
horror
rolling applicants, all the friends, I teach by day,
movie rolesplaying by night, am I becoming her,
actually
weird.
did not with expectation, but pretty sure
$$$talks and we feel it in our bones, but
no porn, thanks
horror
rolling applicants, all the friends, I teach by day,
movie rolesplaying by night, am I becoming her,
actually
weird.
did not with expectation, but pretty sure
$$$talks and we feel it in our bones, but
no porn, thanks
anybody who wants it can have it
and just come back to we for once, bring your sister too
like all things decided, and I'll stop thinking about he+she,
because this is how he werds
and I will stop thinking of she+she, like on my marriage
because we are antsy for EU rn
* *
EU RN
some imag ined guns
I'll thi nk in
U + I
+
in
some image of a heart, formation
like all unfortunate schoolboyzzz
like all things decided, and I'll stop thinking about he+she,
because this is how he werds
and I will stop thinking of she+she, like on my marriage
because we are antsy for EU rn
* *
EU RN
some imag ined guns
I'll thi nk in
U + I
+
in
some image of a heart, formation
like all unfortunate schoolboyzzz
we are also pie you cannot eat
and there is inequality in our field too,
but make sure to delete my cookies.
but make sure to delete my cookies.
Sunday, February 12, 2017
exit-dom-large, HTCone ALL
relational bruno latour music
untitled cory doctorow camera
artist as facilitator lonelygirl15
haraway, situated accelerationism
alain badio-are-u-an-aries images
stengers ss04october fuller_goff
demon you too unauthentic three
untitled cory doctorow camera
artist as facilitator lonelygirl15
haraway, situated accelerationism
alain badio-are-u-an-aries images
stengers ss04october fuller_goff
demon you too unauthentic three
eval like the mediammm
have paid much attention to the importance of affect in contemporary
capitalism in recent years, to its difference from identifiable emotion, and to the links
between affective labor ae abstract forms of
materiality and infrastructure. Less attention, however, has been paid to the precise
ways in wensed links between affective configurations and the broader,
unstable networks of agents and mediators of which we are a part, with their difficult-
to-perceive boundaries and their correlancertain-
ties, are being assembled.
7
just straight-up chunks of thesis now: this is brainwashing
We read Nietzsche when We were, like, very young. We also overmanned it. Later, We crawled out of our cave on the self-righteous mountain top and came to a conclusion: the over-man is not desirable, is over-nothing. We reversed it, noticing that the self-made only exists in a vacuum, that cave, where no breath can escape. If We over-anything, We do it in the social. We’ve tried it out. We’ve brain-washed you into believing some, now, fact. Like, maybe that We are clever or quick or angsty or loud or beautiful or repellent: We made We together. And, if you repeat something enough times out loud it becomes real. Because, self-help seek with We, this is brain-washing.
We read Nietzsche when We were, like, very young. We also overmanned it. Later, We crawled out of our cave on the self-righteous mountain top and came to a conclusion: the over-man is not desirable, is over-nothing. We reversed it, noticing that the self-made only exists in a vacuum, that cave, where no breath can escape. If We over-anything, We do it in the social. We’ve tried it out. We’ve brain-washed you into believing some, now, fact. Like, maybe that We are clever or quick or angsty or loud or beautiful or repellent: We made We together. And, if you repeat something enough times out loud it becomes real. Because, self-help seek with We, this is brain-washing.
We read Nietzsche when We were, like, very young. We also overmanned it. Later, We crawled out of our cave on the self-righteous mountain top and came to a conclusion: the over-man is not desirable, is over-nothing. We reversed it, noticing that the self-made only exists in a vacuum, that cave, where no breath can escape. If We over-anything, We do it in the social. We’ve tried it out. We’ve brain-washed you into believing some, now, fact. Like, maybe that We are clever or quick or angsty or loud or beautiful or repellent: We made We together. And, if you repeat something enough times out loud it becomes real. Because, self-help seek with We, this is brain-washing.
We read Nietzsche when We were, like, very young. We also overmanned it. Later, We crawled out of our cave on the self-righteous mountain top and came to a conclusion: the over-man is not desirable, is over-nothing. We reversed it, noticing that the self-made only exists in a vacuum, that cave, where no breath can escape. If We over-anything, We do it in the social. We’ve tried it out. We’ve brain-washed you into believing some, now, fact. Like, maybe that We are clever or quick or angsty or loud or beautiful or repellent: We made We together. And, if you repeat something enough times out loud it becomes real. Because, self-help seek with We, this is brain-washing.
We read Nietzsche when We were, like, very young. We also overmanned it. Later, We crawled out of our cave on the self-righteous mountain top and came to a conclusion: the over-man is not desirable, is over-nothing. We reversed it, noticing that the self-made only exists in a vacuum, that cave, where no breath can escape. If We over-anything, We do it in the social. We’ve tried it out. We’ve brain-washed you into believing some, now, fact. Like, maybe that We are clever or quick or angsty or loud or beautiful or repellent: We made We together. And, if you repeat something enough times out loud it becomes real. Because, self-help seek with We, this is brain-washing.
We read Nietzsche when We were, like, very young. We also overmanned it. Later, We crawled out of our cave on the self-righteous mountain top and came to a conclusion: the over-man is not desirable, is over-nothing. We reversed it, noticing that the self-made only exists in a vacuum, that cave, where no breath can escape. If We over-anything, We do it in the social. We’ve tried it out. We’ve brain-washed you into believing some, now, fact. Like, maybe that We are clever or quick or angsty or loud or beautiful or repellent: We made We together. And, if you repeat something enough times out loud it becomes real. Because, self-help seek with We, this is brain-washing.
We read Nietzsche when We were, like, very young. We also overmanned it. Later, We crawled out of our cave on the self-righteous mountain top and came to a conclusion: the over-man is not desirable, is over-nothing. We reversed it, noticing that the self-made only exists in a vacuum, that cave, where no breath can escape. If We over-anything, We do it in the social. We’ve tried it out. We’ve brain-washed you into believing some, now, fact. Like, maybe that We are clever or quick or angsty or loud or beautiful or repellent: We made We together. And, if you repeat something enough times out loud it becomes real. Because, self-help seek with We, this is brain-washing.
We perform unnamed social experiments
Digital platforms represent a translation of the ‘real’. We are under construction all the time.
We sometimes point to this.
We sometimes point to this.
Art is also a device. xoxo
++My newly bleached Artifice is also a device. Vehicles and devices remove us from our language-place, remove us from our standing within it; and, with any luck, remove us from prejudice and bias that is filtered through our conditioned personhood. Identify We. Let us try to look from a different eye. Post-human universal, all voices matter: Speak We.++
-excerpts-
-excerpts-
pdf read my thesis: acknowlegments, weareproduct
We thank all voices. We speak for ourselves. We speak for you as well.
Feel with freedom, sure, to speak for us too. You know you always do.
Prescribe some more, We like it. But, do please notice the construction.
We feel so for these mediated bodies. They make us We. Consensually.
Feel with freedom, sure, to speak for us too. You know you always do.
Prescribe some more, We like it. But, do please notice the construction.
We feel so for these mediated bodies. They make us We. Consensually.
[fck]but don't lay a hand on we
image of a thing representing me
image of a being representing me
flesh of a being representing me
flesh of a thing representing me
some amusement to be had
we telephone number, attack
image of a being representing me
flesh of a being representing me
flesh of a thing representing me
some amusement to be had
we telephone number, attack
too late, you said it out loud and it is as real as anything
and now I confronted it
despite actions in realtime
I'm so over.
fork-thing.
Donessss
despite actions in realtime
I'm so over.
fork-thing.
Donessss
we only think about you without a ring
...or bell, or whatever the text alert sound is {stomach's ache}
and, you're no lady
anything you wanted, you couldn't of had it
we don't mean to lie
we didn't mean to be a cun+
+please don't go, we love you so, and we will eat you whole:sweetbang
we didn't mean to be a cun+
+please don't go, we love you so, and we will eat you whole:sweetbang
you won't be here when the thing it said was going to happen is going to happen
But, I will runaway in time to not be able to give you the thing you need
I don't deal in needs. Give you everything I have, but I don't want anything
back. We don't have want. we don't have the rights to needs. There are needs,
We are not interested in one.
I don't deal in needs. Give you everything I have, but I don't want anything
back. We don't have want. we don't have the rights to needs. There are needs,
We are not interested in one.
the one is an idea
get nervous
Just being
Words are
indecision
And get
Obvious^ but so
casual------------some songs ~call you better
<fuck> don't lay a hand on we
Just being
Words are
indecision
And get
Obvious^ but so
casual------------some songs ~call you better
<fuck> don't lay a hand on we
Friday, February 10, 2017
are you in the bad one, I told you wrong, and I liked it, but you told me you didn't write--oh, you were just making fun of me
For if incarnation is the image become flesh,
excarnation is flesh become image.
excarnation is flesh become image.
Tuesday, February 7, 2017
werd.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
Kevin will celibate your life. Earnestly. We bleed auto-fiction.
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